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See, the problem with smoking is that I love to smoke. Good thing I need my lungs for my major. Only once a week Lauren, only once a week.

Guys, I don't want to go back to school yet. :(

I kind of love my dad. He just told me that basically everything I suspected was true: depression runs in the family. He has it, my aunt and uncle have it, and my grandma has it. There is some explanation. Yay Shanahan blood.

So I told my parents about everything but the cutting and..........nobody died. Awesome.
Good thing I looked up side effects of my anti-depressant and they have restlessness and twitching as serious. Oh good.

I went shopping with my friends today.....hate that shit. Not only are they all skinny, but they also have no tits. At all. Nothing. Oh hey I'm Lauren and I have huge boobs and pudge. Hi. So needless to say I ain't feelin so hot right now. I would give so much to just have regular sized boobs. And fuck you if you're reading this and being like......wha wha but I don't have boobs you should be grateful wha wha. Fuck you! You can wear pretty petite dresses and cute bras and bikinis and you don't get backaches and guys always staring at them. I don't fit into anything cute. Ever. Why do you think I wear tshirts and flowy shirts all the time? IT'S ALL THAT FITS. You have it easier, I don't care what you say.